without cigarettes

i haven't gone this long without cigarettes for a long time.
it's surprisingly not as bad as i thought it would be.
however,tomorrow i will smoke as many as possible.

tonight, harley didn't come home. he drank 151 and stayed at a friends house.
jordan gave me the first serious hug this evening. he told me he didnt hate me, which is nice, because i thought he did.

i went to heather's to see the kittens. they are fucking aborable. i think i'm going to take one of the orange ones. i'm thinking or a name for the kitten. it's a boy. i was thinking 'fernando' (katie rawding's idea) or maybe 'thom yorke'. if anyone has suggestions, go ahead.

i think next week i will drink with my room mates and their friends. i think my friends make them uncomfortable.
my friends. make people uncomfortable.
ridiculous