self loathing gets you everywhere

i'm starting to fuck up even the stuff i do well.
i woke up at 7:50 this morning, an hour before class
and decided to go back to sleep.
which is so upsetting for me right now. i kind of want to slap myself.

tonight im going to take any pill that makes me drowsy.
and tomorrow?
fuck anything else that has nothing to do with school.

hopefully i can recover from this term