junction

so, recluse-dom it is.
i had one person that i hung out with in the city semi-regularly. besides that, i was in school or at home, or being part of the background of a weekly tradition, or at special occasions.
my therapist said awhile ago that i'm 'purposely sabatoging my relationships with people to gain seclusion.' she seems to think that's a bad thing, but when i think about it, why should i have friends now if i'm just going to treat them badly and then go through the shitstorm of fighting and eventually losing them, making both myself and said friends feel like total hell? it would save a lot of time and energy if i were to just cut it all out. some may say that it's a pretty sad existance, but i was pretty much doing it already, and now that there is virtually no one, i can relax in my (supposed)subconsciously desired seclusion.


alright, see you all in the grocery stores!