duct tape

i'm a mess
i shouldn't be allowed to talk anymore

the tourist

as long as im awake

i dont like having the 18 year old girl title.
its true, but i still don't like it.

you really had me pegged brad puskas.
i really am a slave of sensation.
one trend, however, i think might just be coming to and end.

you can go ahead and tempt me
but you'll be staying behind my bathroom mirror

sleeping pills

insomnia is awsome

i'm not quite an insomniac.
this whole not falling asleep until 5:30am is getting pretty old though

i had trouble sleeping last year. my idiot doctor gave me sleeping pills. they made me hallucinate. i sold some to 9th grade kids at school.

i'm finding it hard to sleep again. but i don't think i want sleeping pills.
i'm not a fan of prescription pills
except i'm liking echinachea.

pretty words

'i hear our trumpets now.
they get us ready for all the future
undead armies
that will be fighting for
precious Golden Melodies
and the pretty silver trophies
we will all love and die for'

i think these will get me to sleep tonight

sweet dreams baby!

i didnt go to school today.
my mind and body needed a day to rest.
i puked in my nice clean bathroom.
at 4 am i couldnt sleep
as a result there are now 40 lichtenstiens on my wall
my favorite is the girl waking up next to a milk crate and saying
'good morning darling'
i had dreams about a lot of people last night
and today when i was sleeping instead of in school.
they were interesting dreams.
i have a huge urge to draw a microphone with an omni directional soundwave pattern on my wall.

sound pressure varies between front and back of ribbon microphones diaphragm

my blanket and bed has been stolen

im done with studying for tonight
3 hours until i drink a whole lotta coffee

fuck punctuation

bedrooms

i'm so happy about my bedroom floor now being able to be rolled on.
troy and tobias cleaned my room this evening.
i pledged $30 to ckdu. i recommend you pledge $30 to get the same treatment

black flag was played, and embarrassing condoms were found pretty much everywhere. we talked about celebrities. i'm also getting mixed tapes, and zines.
it's so clean its freakin me out.
lindsay is here. i'm most likely going to force her to watch west side story. after i play tetris for a little while.

fuck

patrick
you need to leave my thoughts
now.
please

i feel like trading everything in for something new.
but i think everything i have to trade wouldnt be worth anything new
so i guess i have to deal with this
or not
we'll see

freaked

something that should have been here isn't yet
we'll see what happens.

i'm a good singer.
i think that's the only thing i don't need re-assurement of.

a good/shitty night
time to sleep

drinks

i think im starting to lighten up a little bit.
just a little bit, this isnt a huge overhaul.
usually im a horribly stupid drunk asshole
and i hate myself the next day for doing whatever i did

but tonight, not so much.
i got a platonic walk home from a nice fellow
he scared away the pigeons for me
first time a guy has walked me home and didn't end up leaving the following morning. that's something i'm actually pretty proud of
sadly.

oh i think it's time for me to either sleep or plot ways to steal my turquoise bra back from lindsay.

There

Done.