an update:

after a day of fermenting, craig's hand is delicious

the wolf

it kills voices and hands

shift

today was neat.
i woke up in a mansion in bruhl (spelling? i don't know) at 4:30am in possibly the worst state of my life. we travelled the 40 minutes it took to get back to pictou.
i didn't sleep. i promptly began throwing up. i threw up everything that had entered my body the previous day. including the 21mg of nicotine i got from the patch.

i felt better after a shower, and some water. but still not in a great state.
we were picked up by my father at around 2, and driven back to antigonish. i drove craig and myself back into town to visit my favorite teacher at the high school. unfortunately he wasn't there, but the regional is looking very nice. very different.

we drove back home and watched television while eating stew. still not in a great state, but doing much much better.

i got a phone call from nicole, we drove back into town to see her. she had a birthday present for me. i was instantly put into a good mood, and felt pretty much 100% better. she gave me a rocky action figure. i didn't even know what to say at first. my birthday had been a very rocky balboa birthday, indeed.

we drove around, and we came across katie, working at the moonlight. i was really happy to see her. i hadn't in almost a year.

antigonish isn't all bad

cabin fever

this apartment is too small for two people. simple as that.
well, i guess it's too small for two people that have a lot of stupid stuff and one of them is a huge slob.
oh well. we're saving money.

craig and i are planning a trip. kind of like the one he did in august with lindsay, but in june, and heading south.
the places we plan to get to: boston, NYC, philadelphia, washington d.c., raleigh, savannah, athens, atlanta, knoxville, nashville, memphis, jackson, new orleans, albuquerque (i've always wanted to go there, because of bugs bunny) phoenix, las vegas, los angeles, fresno, santa cruz, san francisco, then to vancouver and back through canada.

anyway, that'll be fun. it just means we're stuck in this hole of an apartment for another 6 months.

i've quit smoking, which has been going well. i've had one drag of a cigarette in a little more than a week. which is promising. i've been somewhat cranky, but that's inevitable. i also had my wisdom teeth removed, which adds to the crankiness, but that's also inevitable.

i've been pretty happy for awhile, and i wish everyone could be in my place. i don't wish bad things upon anyone. i hope everyone is doing well.

we're going to pictou and antigonish for a few days before craig leaves again to visit franc for a week or so. i'm somewhat excited. i'm looking forward to seeing nicole, louise, and katie. it should be alright

well

it takes two people to ruin a friendship. the person who does the wrong, and the person who doesn't forgive.
that's that. i don't want to dwell on it anymore.