no vacancy: the dismal shit rainbow resort is full. we apologize for any inconvenience

edie sedgwick shit all over my bedroom floor.
it's a pretty accurate visual representation of how i've felt for the past few days.

'you're nice, but....'

i'm a revelation maker.
i help people find their hopes and dreams and futures.
with other people.

i should become a match maker. i'd make a bloody fortune

parents pt. II

my parents came to visit me today.
they brought treats for edie sedgwick. i swear they like her more than they like me.

they also brought stuff for me, including speakers. i can now play records. i played portishead's live in roseland today.... 4 times.... while doing laundry.... then twice more while doing dishes. it put me in a very domestic mood.

my parents took me out to dinner. my dad left a really terrible tip, i called him cheap, and then we fought the whole walk back to my house. it was hilarious

an update:

i think a female lawyer won the rock paper scissors tournament.

i started reading scum manifesto. instead of making me feel worse about men, it makes me feel sorry for men that there is a book tearing them apart.

"i ain't yo baby's daddy!"

i'm watching a rock-paper-scissors tournament on a&e.
what the hell.

last night started as a very ordinary friday night. white wine and low self esteem.

after a few strolls around the city in my new found leather, i have come to a new resolution: i'm no where near as retarded as half the people living and roaming around this bloody city.
stupid people are a great ego-booster.

fun game!

i've invited quite a lovely game. i insult myself in jen's presence and she makes a funny angry face and her heart breaks a little. self deprecation! yay!

this week has been all kinds of terrible. well, really only when i'm alone. when i'm alone, sitting in the dismal rainbow shit resort, i think about stupid things way too much.
whenever i was around people this past week, such as heather and i working on CREEP, boytalk with jen, or sonic sean part II, i gave all my thoughts a swift kick in the ass.

other than that: shit

put your playlist on random

this is a great idea stephen

How am I feeling today? satisfaction-bjork and pj harvey cover of rolling stones

Will I get far in life? western eyes-portishead

How do my friends see me? you go to my head-louis armstrong and oscar peterson

Where will I get married? stranded in the jungle-new york dolls

What is my best friend's theme song? brass in pocket-the pretenders

What is the story of my life? add it up-violent femmes

What was high school like? gasoline rain-moondogg

What is the best thing about me? beautiful feeling-pj harvey

What was today like? paganini somewhere in time-rachmaninov

What is in store for this weekend? a wolf at the door-radiohead

What song describes my parents? these days-nico

How is my life going? crimson and clover-joan jett and the blackhearts

What song will they play at my funeral? it's over-tom waits (hahahahaha)

How does the world see me? criminal-fiona apple

Do people secretly lust after me? dreaming-blondie

How can I make myself happy? punchdrunk lovesick sing-along-radiohead

What should I do with my life? blow out-radiohead

Will I ever have children? lola-the kinks

What will you name them? claire de lune-debussey

Who will you marry? rock and roll- velvet underground (what a great answer!)

Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend/spouse? the tourist-radiohead

How will you die? subway train-new york dolls



wow, i got some pretty freaky answers

lame!

sorry for being so lame
too much booze too early in a fatigued person with an empty stomach

incredible

i am in total fucking awe of a certain individual. i've been told many things about this individual. mostly all discouraging, and some of the comments have just been incredibly nasty.

but the day i spent with this individual yesterday has done nothing but make me think higher of him. he's one of the most talented, easy to get along with, incredible people i've ever met in my entire life. and at the same time, he's pretty fucking down to earth, considering the elitists that exist and roam around the musical community of this city.

needless to say, i enjoy their company very much.

garbage!

so it's true. heather and i are truly trashy, trashy girls.



while hoping to find treasure in other people's trash, we decided to create a sidewalk living room. i sat back and enjoyed some old playboys, cigarettes, and juice

i hate robe

he needs to know what he's talking about

i hurt my cat

when i got home, i accidentally stepped on my cat's leg.

i feel so bad.

the night was fun. jen, i hope you're feeling better