long time

3 months, no posts?

i've been busy.

i graduated. i'm 21 with a degree. go figure.
i work at a call centre. a great one. i talk to new yorkers all day about their online grocery delivery service.
i live in a very colorful apartment with an even more colorful boy. our cat in monotone in color, but very bright in spirit.

last summer blew. this summer will be MAGNIFICENT. why?
a) everything isn't stupid
b) craig will be here for the month of august
c) we're going to go see RADIOHEAD
d) cut off shorts?

growlers in the sunshine, swimming at the lake, montreal, yes.

oh yeah. i never have to go back to antigonish ever again. my parents will be living in the south shore again in a matter of weeks. a summer without me being in chester for race week has happened once in my 21 years. it will never happen again. and now i'll have a bed to sleep in.

FUCKED

tonight, i lost my boyfriend at the marquee.
then i tried to find him.

i went to a party with my friends from the nish, thinking he would be there;
but he wasn't..

then i called him at the house where we live. and he was there.
i told him i'd come meet him, then we'd go.

my friend louise lost her scarf and we had to search for it on west street.
then we ate a slice of pizza, and then kept looking.

then we went to the irving, cuz louise had to get something. i bought some chocolate bars.

i came home and he wasn't here. his shoes were here, his coats were here, but he wasn't.
i freaked out.

my cat got outside.
she ran away around the corner of the neighbor's house, then she ran around the communal garbage cans, and i finally caught her.

i brought her into the house where my boyfriend wasn't. i put her in the bedroom where i'm sure he wasn't, so she wouldn't run away again.

i freaked out some more and cried, because i didn't know where my bf was.
then heather heard some guitar playing in my bedroom.
and there he was.
my love was in the bedroom.

i cried some more because we had found him.
jared, heather, nicole and louise all gave me hugs.

louise is now sleeping on my couch, and my love, craig is now next to me.
it was a stressful half hour. but now he's here.

it's time for bed

my mom had surgery

finally.

she's doing great.

hopefully this takes care of everything.

i hate hate hate when people are phony.

like, when they're nice to your face, and then you find out they're saying totally fucked up things about you behind your back. and the stuff they talk about doesn't even concern them.

well, don't expect me to be civil to you ever again

2008

my 21st year.

this past year has been my worst/best year.
although the bad things that happened this year... unexplainable,
the good things definetly out-weigh the bad.

in 2007
-i had a mohawk
-i lived in 3 different houses
-i turned 20, leaving teenager-dom behind for good
-i cut two people who made me feel terrible out of my life
-i started seeing a doctor regularily
-i've been a lot less sick
-i've quit smoking for a month
-i'm returned to my roots
-i had a job, cleaning up after crazy old people
-i ruined a friendship
-i did things that made my parents cry a whole lot
-after some work, i stopped doing the things that made my parents cry
-i weakened my immune system
-then, strenghtened my immune system
-i took a well needed break from school, then returned when i was ready and focused (and now i am doing well)
-i lost some friends, but got to figure out who my good good good friends are
-i joined journalist wolf, i started playing music with my love under the guise 'the incredible melting band' and i've continued vulva culture in secret
-oh yeah, i started dating this guy craig which was the best descision i've ever made, despite the negative consequences.
-i fell in love

the good definetly out-weighs the bad.

this year i...
-graduate with a degree
-i turn 21
-i get to travel with craig and music
-my parents cut the cord (scary, but not too bad)
-i get a full time job ( in my industry hopefully)

2007 was good, but 2008 will be incredible.

xmas

4 more days of school.
no more terminator project, after tomorrow.
and i've gotten great marks in 3 classes. i only really have to worry about my studio management class and my location audio class. but i'm really just looking forward to this semester being over. having to do basically all the same stuff over again really blows.

xmas will be great, see my brother, spend time with the curries, see my folks. all that good stuff.

we went to chester last saturday. my friend always does a really burnt xmas play. this year it was a western.
they really have absolutely nothing to do with xmas, except in the finale, they sing an xmas carol.
after the show, they had the cast party and we stuck around and got completely smashed. we sang some songs, bought a painting, stole some flowers/beer.
the rest of the trip was pretty terrible. we forgot our bag on the bus so we had to walk around chester in the completely drenched clothes we wore the day before. also, the storm made the bus an hour and a half late. so we had to sit around in a convenience store for 2 hours, more hung over than i've ever been.
BUT
it turns out, my friend darren is a realtor in chester. i told him my parents were moving back to the south shore, and he remembered i lived in west chester. he apparently has two houses for sale in my parents price range IN west chester.
it's already a good thing that i'll never have to go back to antigonish. but now i'll also get to visit my parents in the neighborhood i grew up in. one of the houses is apparently right across the motherfucking street from my old house.

this is my absolutely last christmas i'm going to spend in antigonish. i guess i'll make it a good one.

pow

isn't it a beaut?
can't wait for color